sad songs make me happy :)

I’m drinking earl grey tea and listening to one of my favorite records – Bitter – by Me’Shell Ndegeocello. I love the lush, melancholy tones of the production… Sad songs have always made me happy.

I remember listening to this album in the fall of ’99 (wow TEN years ago.) I was living alone in Queens and was new enough to the city that I was still relatively friendless. I was nursing a broken heart and a stifled spirit. I listened to this record over and over and felt it deep in a way I hadn’t felt music before.

I’m so grateful for all of the positive feedback I’ve been getting about ‘Never Was.’ To hear that people can GET so much of what you are trying to convey and also find and be affected by things that you never even intended is an amazing, almost intoxicating feeling.

I uploaded the songs to the online store just before I went to sleep Monday night. I woke up Tuesday morning to a few dozen sales and raves from some die-hard fans that I would be a little disappointed not to please.

Last night, I celebrated by toasting a tiny perrier jouet split with Liz. In Hollywood, we were gifted with a beautiful fall night that felt all crisp and east coasty. It was perfect.

Now that the record is out, it’s a relief of sorts, but it also reminds me of the reality of the situation… which is that this marks the beginning of a whole new kind of WORK. I have to find as many ways as possible to get ‘Never Was’ to new ears. I have no publicist, no record label, no big corporate radio machine to help spread my tunes to potential new fans. So, I have to get grass roots and guerilla. And I need your help. If you like this music, play it for your friends! There is no stronger way to spread music than friend to friend.

Now I must clean my apartment. It’s pretty dirty and I have company coming. Thank you for listening to my music, thanks for buying it, and thanks for letting me know what you think. More to come, so soon!

xoxo,
cjd